oh man, last friday nathan and i started having the longest conversation about special relativity. we kept going in circles trying to figure out if distances from the reference of the astronaut shrink… if the velocities change, etc. in the end we decided that it’d help if we had someone who was really good in physics with us.

now i have to confess something. back in university, I did take a class on relativity but dropped the class in favour of a bio class. i dropped the physics class because i didn’t like the professor and thought I wouldn’t get an A in the class. my plan worked. i got an A, well an A- in bio but now I regret dropping the physics class. besides i’m interested in particle physics… what the hell would i need special relativity for?

so last friday i ordered my first book on particle physics. it arrived yesterday, brand spanking new, just the way i liked my books. i opened the book to the intro and right there in front of my eyes it says, “elementary particle physics naturally falls under the dominion of quantum field theory.” and as i found out a few paragraphs later, quantum field theory just happens to be a union of relativity and quantum mechanics. shiet.

as you can see i’m no expert in physics. far from it and i have my work cut out for me. i think i’ll just see how far i get reading the book i got and if i don’t get very far, i’ll take it as a sign to just start from scratch. i’ll brush up on Newtonian physics, electromagnetism and QM for the heck of it, then SR and back to particle physics.

My favourite Schubert piece. I’ve been listening to this repeatedly, probably due to the fact that I’m in such a good mood. I just came out to Josh and Mike this week and I was surprised they both took it great… actually I was sort of disappointed with Mike’s reaction (but more on that later).

You’d think that coming out at 25 isn’t such a big deal anymore but for some reason, I had a little trouble saying the G word, “Gooda.” No sorry, I meant gay. It’s like everytime I say it, I sort of cringe… it’s as if gay is the equivalent of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.. (you know.. Lord Voldemort) ::cringes::

Hmmm… “Lord Voldemort.”

::cringes::

Bah, I can’t say his name. Where’s Harry Potter when you need him.

It’s been a while since I came out to somebody and I was getting rusty. I told Josh a couple days ago while we were playing WoW. He was bugging me all day about him finding a gf for me (don’t ask) and I just had to tell him that gf’s aren’t really my thing. Ok I didn’t exactly tell him. It went more along the lines of..

“hey josh, so about that gf thing. just don’t do it”

“why not?”

“Guess.”

“oohhhh”

For some reason after that I just knew he was cool with it. In a way I was also shocked that he was cool with it because I knew he’s a creationist and when the word creationist pops up I immediately think “religious fanatic.” I honestly expected bible verses to come out of his mouth. I’m so stupid. Someone slap me and not in that S&M sort of way.

I came out to Mike today while we were headed back to the office after picking up one of the servers from the colo. I sort of owed it to him since I’ve been working with him for more than a year now. What can I say? I was disappointed with his reaction.

“hey Mike, I.. uhhh.. happen to like guys”

“yeah I know.”

“…”

It was like me proving the Riemann hypothesis only to find out that everyone else figured it out already. I was dumbfounded. I planned to give this big speech after telling him I liked guys and instead I just gave him a big “WHHAA?!” It turns out he read my blog a year ago and figured it out from there. The bitch knew and he stole my thunder!! -.-

I’m lucky to be surrounded by such great people. Such a relief too since these are people I work with everyday. I can sort of relax a little bit now.. I don’t have to watch my pronouns.. and just be more open. ::exhales::

Who needs a bf when you have such great friends. (I’ll probably regret saying that… lol)

Oh yeah before I forget… Josh is having a show on Nov. 15 at Cuppy’s so make sure you check it out!

I just finished the 7th Harry Potter book around 30 mins ago. That is all.

OK ewww. I nearly puked typing that. I guess I’m not the romantic type. LoL. Or maybe I am, who knows. All I know is that my love is wasted away as each year passes away. ::pukes::

Sorry I tried. Anyway I spent most of today worrying about bugs in the current project we’ve been working on. The damn things just keep on creeping up! Talk about stress! After work, the family and I headed of the Houston’s for some dinner. mmmm ahi tuna. I’m gonna throw a little dinner thing on Saturday. Not quite sure where but Hamburger Mary’s keeps popping up in my mind. I’ve never been there so I’m not sure if it’s a good place to eat or just to party at. Any suggestions?

I’ve been reading The Year of Ice again. I love that book. It’s just so cute reading about how Kevin goes to his bedroom and imagines his pillows as his big crush, Jon. Too cute really! But it’s not all cuteness, there’s a lot of serious to the story.. the death of his mother, his sort of dysfunctional relationship with his dad. I sort of really feel for kevin… somehow he just doesn’t have it that good.

What else has been going on in my life? Oh yes, my bro and I are finally moving to a 2 bedroom apartment! We’ve been in this apartment for 5 years now, and actually live in this street for 7 years. It’s sickening. Oh yeah did I forget to mention that we’re currently in a 1 bedroom? Talk about a lack of privacy. I remember back in the Philippines where I got my own room and keep the door locked and pretty kept the door locked. You gotta wonder what the heck I did in there! Anyway I’m totally excited about the new place. Not just cause it’s a two bedroom but because it’s in a totally different place. So long Jamboree!

Anyway today I just finished reading/listening Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. Things sort of picked up around chapter 24 and at that point I couldn’t stop reading. Thank god for audio books so that I could continue on with the story while laying down in bed with the lights turned off, or when driving on the way to work. Actually that was sort of a bad idea listening to the story while driving at work this morning. Let’s just say something VERY important was going on (like a turning point in the whole story) while I was going down the 405. I got pretty emotional and teary eyed but good thing I did not lose control of the car. LoL.

The 6th book is probably my 2nd favourite Potter book, right after The Prisoner of Azkaban. It was quite a relief that it didn’t turn out like the 5th book. If you’ll remember I hated the 5th book so much that I didn’t want to read the 6th book till much later. Come to think of it, it’s only now that I’ve caught up with the Potter series. I’ve always been a book behind just cause of the breaks I take between the books. Now that Potter is down, I’m shifting my efforts to finishing the Narnia series.

I started Prince Caspian a while ago and it’s turning out to be quite interesting. It sort of reminds me of Return to Oz, where Dorothy comes back to Oz and the once beautiful Emerald City is now in ruins. I can’t wait to see how that turns out.

Aside from ordering the sheet music for Pride & Prejudice from Amazon, I also got The Wright 3 and The Book Thief. The Wright 3, as I heard from the Today show, is like The Da Vinci Code for kids, but this time it’s with Frank Lloyd Wright’s Robie House. Now I first saw The Book Thief while I was perusing the aisle of books at Costco. I remember getting turned off when I saw WWII in the summary, but thought I’d give it another shot when a bunch of people were saying it was a really good story on Amazon. If you haven’t guessed, I tend to shop a lot in Amazon.

Oh one last thing, anyone finished that Da Vinci quest on Google? I just finished an hour or so ago, but I was reading the rules and it said that only the first 10,000 submissions can proceed to the next phase. Considering I submitted mine not too long ago, I figure that I’m not one of those 10,000 participants. sigh. c’est la vie. you snooze you lose. merde.

I’m sort of hessitant to start reading the next book, Leave Myself Behind, just because I have a feeling it’s gonna be another emotional roller coaster. I need something lighter damnit! But then again, I think Leave Myself Behind is gonna be a good read so I’ll start it anyway.

So that is me right now, my nights basically involve playing Warcraft and reading before going to bed. I sort of get worried that I might turn into one of those old lonely people who reads romance novels all the time. It’s as if the novel becomes a substitue to their love life. And as most of you know, my love life is… well non-existent… so I do worry. LoL.

Here’s 2 pics of Matt:

and here’s one of Jonathan

Anyway, aside from watching movies, I’ve also been reading a couple of books. The book I just finished reading is The Order of the Poison Oak, which is the sequel to Brent Hartinger’s The Geography Club. Both are really good books, though I probably thought they were great cause they were such easy reads. But really I love the way the Brent writes the whole thing. It seems like the main character is really speaking to you and by the end of the book you feel as if you know him personally. Anyway, that sort of lead me to go on a spending spree and I ended up buying a couple of other books…

1) The Brothers Bishop
2) Leave Myself Behind
3) The World of Normal Boys

They all deal with being gay and all seem to have some connection to a high school. I just started reading The Brothers Bishop and there’s some weird shit in there… one of them being incest. But nevertheless it’s an interesting book.. I found myself staying up till 2am this past few days just trying read as much of it as I can. As for the other two books, they still haven’t arrived. UPS is so stupid. GRRR…

In other news, I had this weird dream about Matt a few days ago. I dreamt that he actually got married to some woman, and I found out by reading one of the titles on Google. For some reason it really pissed me off and I remember waking up all of a sudden and having this feeling that it was real. It really did feel so real.. I actually had to double check with Google if it was true or not later in the morning. Aside from being pissed off I also felt sort of sad. I dunno, I haven’t thought about him for a long time and after that dream all these memories are popping up in my head. It’s been bumming me out but hopefully I can push it out of my mind again. Seriuosly, the last thing I need is to be sad over that dude… it’s really time to move on.

Oh yes, now I didn’t write anything over the holiday because I was busy playing World of Warcraft. I really didn’t do much aside from going to the mall and stuff. My family spent Christmas Eve with my mom’s friend, and we had this little karaoke competition where the karaoke machine would score you after each song… I got 3rd place! But trust me, I CANNOT sing…
And because it was the holidays I immediately gained 5 pounds. The fact that we kept getting these gift baskets filled with food and shit didn’t help. Also since my mom is here, I get home cooked meals all the time now so that’s not helping either. Thankfully, Juno and I have badminton planned this Tuesday. Screw the cold weather! I just need to get back in shape.

Also Brokeback Mountain comes out this Friday. However, I’m sort of confused because a couple of websites ae saying that it opens on the 16th in south coast. Honestly, that’s fine.. watching both Narnia and Brokeback Mountain in a day or two will be too much for me.

Last but not the least, King Kong. I’m not exactly thrilled to see that movie… I dunno, maybe I got sick of it after going to Universal Studios way too many times. lol oh well.. that’s it for now. time to finish The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.

g’nite!

I really want to say a lot more about the game but doing so makes me want to postpone this entry and play WoW instead.

Anyway, I do have a life aside from WoW. Saturday, Juno and I had to separate ourselves from the computer to go to the Taste of Lexus event down at El Toro. Fortunately, CozyClear went to the same event up in the bay area last week and I liked the photo she used on her blog…

We arrived around 3pm and we had 2 hours to test drive the cars they have. They had the IS 250, 350, BMW 330, GS, BMW 530i, and a Merc E-class. There were a ton of people so we didnt’ get to drive a lot of cars and only ended up trying the GS 430, IS 350, and the BMW 330i. Honestly, I really prefer the 330i to the 350 just because it felt really good driving it. Sure the Lexus is a lot faster than the BMW but that’s pretty much it… the Lexus didn’t feel that great of a car to drive compared to the bimmer.

On Sunday, Al Lowe and I watched Pride and Prejudice. It really is a chick flick but I really wanted to see it because… get this… Spooks’ Tom Quinn (a.k.a. Matthew McFadyen) is Mr. Darcey. eeep!

I also loved the soundtrack and you can get a pretty good idea of what the it sounds like from their website. Now, I’m trying to look for the sheet music but can’t seem to find it so I’m a little pissed off.

Speaking of movies, Harry Potter opens this Friday!! I can’t believe it’s finally here! Now, I just need to find people to watch it with. Oh yeah, can you believe that the 3rd Potter movie only came out last year? i can’t, it seems so loooong ago. but I checked my xanga blog, and there it is June 5, 2005… the day I watched the movie. Here are the tickets to prove it…

Also other movies to look forward to… Brokeback Mountain and The Chronicles of Narnia, both come out on the 9th of December! I dunno if I can watch both movies on the same day since I may be too emotianlly drained from watching either movie.

In other news, I’m currently listening the audio book for The Lincoln Lawyer. This really is the book to read if you’re looking for something to start this winter. BTW, the Lincoln refers to the car and not the president. Sort of reminds me of The Da Vinci Code because it takes place in real places. But unlike The Da Vinci Code, this one just revolves around a lawyer dealing with a rape case. Scary, exciting, and funny is what I can say about the book.

Oh yeah, my mom is also arriving soon! I also wrote about this a year ago. I remember Lilly Dee liked how I used the Die Mommie Die! poster.

So yeah, tonight I survived a day without WoW. Maybe I can get passed this addiction afterall.